Recall how I said I was on the border of falling either way, and I was scared if I fell the wrong way ... I fell to the wrong side. I fell but I haven't completely let go of the wagon. I am holding on for dear life to a rope attached to that wagon and trying with all my might to get back in.
I've been going through some personal issues and this past week I let them get to me. I let them take control but today I decided that I'm the one in control of my life. There is just no way that I am going back ... to my old weight, to my old life ... there is just no way.